Attention Seeker

Attention can be seen as a drug to some, given a little and you crave for more. Once you are hooked, you do what you can to get more, whatever pain you may put somebody in.

A harmless child. That was what i thought of him. A typical child, just want to enjoy his time spent with other, running around in the school field or just hang out and do nothing. That was such a long time ago. But he started to grow up, and once a person grow up, less attention is given to him.
His mind grew, and he discovered what importance attention was to him.
His mind grew, and he observed how others attained attention from others.
His mind grew, and he schemed how he would be able to get the attention he needed.
He tested it out, his ideas on people. And as normal, the plans of a child is bound to fall at some point, only his fell faster. But he quickly got up, try different approaches to the problem. He quickly understood what he needed to do, he started to humiliate himself.

Attention to those desperate need not be positive. To them, just being known at whatever the cost and whatever the consequences, is all that matters. This child transformed, everyone could see he had changed no matter how well he try to hide it. He tried public humiliation, and that gave him the most pleasure. It satisfied his hunger, and he continued. And then when he matured, he already sold his life. His entire life because just an act. He was a pretender, how he presented himself, body movement and his actions, all an act. Those who knew just felt pity, until like a drug addict, wanted to find some other drug to give him a different thrill. The pity changed to despise and almost hatred.

From public humiliation, he changed to hurting others. His approach was smart, never physically, always mentally, and on those who he knew would never harm or hurt him him. Although one stood up to him, he continued to prey on those who were kinder. To some, he targeted more tightly. Much tears were shed, much harsh words were exchanged and many thoughts towards this person became horribly negative. Yet this was what he wanted, attention, so he continued.

For years, he intelligently avoided conflict with those who could hurt him.
Not anymore shall he do so, or at least not peacefully
He may get the attention he wants from this person who tells it to his face. But its well worth it, if by giving attention he will stop, then giving attention it will be. He hurts others with words, he will experience what he had put his victims through the years. Fight fire with fire. And so a person who craves attention can only be stopped by giving attention.

May he not break from the words to be spoken.