to know

whats the point of knowing??
so what, right?
will that make it possible for you to do wonders?
then again, would you want to try to do wonders?

when you know, what's stopping you to not bother?
conscience? you lost that already.
try to deny that, go on.
you know everything, do you want that?
since you do, you know how to un-learn,
but you don't want to do you?
the knowledge you have, you want greed to take over.
you un-learn charity, you un-learn mercy,
that with the lost of conscience,
you feel free.
then what?
you can't do wrong cause you know its right.
you can't do right cause you know its wrong.
you aren't even in the middle cause that is wrong and right,
you know that can't be.
you search for an answer, but you know the answer,
you are forced to believe because its true.
you don't want to live anymore, but
you know what happens after death.
you dont want to die.
you have no where to run, to hide,
you are forced to live a life knowing its direction and purpose you want to change,
you are forced to accept what comes after death, never changing it,
never succeeding because knowing is not doing,
you then take away your mentality, your common sense,
you take away your sanity,
to escape the life you were meant to live, to face what awaits you after death,
there is no escape,
accept it.

stay

you look at me with those eyes,
pretend, go ahead.
I'll start pretending too,
just because... i cant stand you?
its just wrong not to? that surge of adrenaline?
i want to?
pretend to cry, pretend to fall,
go ahead.
useless
pretend to care, pretend to have compassion,
go ahead.
what compassion?
pretend cower, pretend to hide,
go ahead.
backstabber
pretend to cherish, pretend to love,
go ahead.
what are you?
pretend to pretend.
what are you trying to prove?
pretend to pretend.
once isn't enough?

thats all you are good at,
if you stop, what would happen?
this world will drown even further, thats what...
go on, just continue,
we will have somebody to blame for all this mess.
we will look like heroes to...
think of it as a noble action,
to clear your conscience with a negative one,
if you even have one...
let us stick you with needles,
throw some useless tests on you,
hurry up...
we just need an excuse,
come on, we are waiting.
goodbye

I don't

I don’t understand…

I want to… but it never works out that way…

What is this?

You want to know what other people are going through, but what would you do when you find out its all the same? Who can help who then? Who determines what is right when all thinks the same? Majority? Minority? Do you follow what makes you feel good? Do you know what actually makes you feel good to start with? You know the outcome will be the same, but you keep thinking whether it may change. You know it, you can guarantee it, but you keep thinking otherwise. What is right? The answer we set is from observation, from trying to make you feel better cause we can’t live up to a set expectation. You look at everything we feel is right, but you think again and again and again, its never the same. We ask so many questions when you know you won’t get answer, why ask? Does it make you feel better? Does asking help clear the guilt of a previous action when you know that there is no definite answer to prove you wrong? You think of complex questions to contradict answers that are not definite, does that make you feel better? You think we are idiots? You don’t think we know what you are thinking? We think just like you do, if not more. You ask nonsensical questions cause you are afraid aren’t you? Cause of your guilt you ask question to answers that you can not be proven. Cause you know you are wrong but do not want to change, you ask these question to fool yourself. We just don’t tell you cause we ask these questions ourselves. We are afraid to be called a hypocrite. So we let you go on, to keep fooling yourself. Cause we fear the outcome of the actions we think are right but may be otherwise. Because of uncertainty, we allow nonsense to continue.