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'Leave....just go....why cant you just leave me alone....'

i don't understand....who does....every time... 'you can do it, just hold on, just a little more'.... just a little more.... what does that mean? 2 years? 3 years? 70 more year?? you wont know when 'just a little more' will be, do you? do you know when 'just a little more' will be for you? or are you just saying something that every misunderstood person is saying?repeating a supposedly 'motivating sentence'?thinking that, ooo, this sounds nice, sounds encouraging. so what if i don't know what it mean, it makes me sound intelligent, people WILL appreciate me for saying this. wait, do you even think about that? or you just use words without thinking?

you think words can make things better?after what we go through, you think the simple sounds that come from that defiled mouth of yours will change anything for the better? some nice enough to say 'thank you for those words of encouragement', can you see what is so obvious behind their eyes, the let down, the slow loss of respect? no, you go on and on. have you even thought for a second that those 'words of encouragement', can actually discourage? the nonsense that you speak of, immediately, people can see that you don't actually mean it. they see right through that cloth you put over yourself, see that person that 'care' so much, they lose hope in those who pretend. betrayed.... why do you bother to continue, words brings no value, don't you understand? it just brings a deterioration in whatever respect we have left for those around us, don't you understand? obviously not... i don't understand why i'm even writing this... you never get anything, you blind follower.